Tuesday, March 26, 2013

A moment of truth.......

With all my well intentions, I have once again neglected this blog.  There are plectra of reasons, being busy, life curve balls and etc.  However the main (and real) reason for my absence has been…..worrying about the perception the blog will give of me.  My name is Book Snob Wannabe, and I worry about how people view me. 

What I created for purposes of having an outlet for my love of reading and writing, eventually turned into another “thing” I had to do.  I felt like I had to jump out the gate with this awesome blog that had great content that for reasons unbeknownst to me, caused fear and insecurity to show up and instead of fighting through it, I crawled into my safe space and gave up. 

I kept trying to figure out what a book blogger “should” be doing instead of just having fun.  Looking at other established sites with their great headers, well thought out and explained book reviews and amazing book related posts, caused great anxiety and actual thoughts of:

“My site will never look like that.”

“Why do I even bother writing a review of (any book here), it will never be as good as (insert any blogger here)”

“My site will always be inferior because (insert any lame reason here).”

Yeah, that was me. 

However things are about to change; I have been challenged to put my authentic self out there for the world to see and not care what one thinks of me.  So if I want to review Les Miserables one day and the next day write about Sista Souljah, that’s my prerogative.  So what if one thinks that my review isn’t critical enough.  Who cares if one thinks the quality of my blog isn’t up to “par”?  All that should matter is that I am doing what I love and I am enjoying the process.  Instead of conforming to what I “think” a good book blogger should be, my goal is to become the book blogger I want to be!

Therefore I welcome you again to BOOK SNOB WANNABE!!!


Laura BookSnob said...

Yay! I am so happy to hear that you are going to continue to blog. I struggle with some of the same issues and it is just to hard to blog full time. Some people have to work and then leave their house to do fun things, right? My blog is my creative outlet. I am happy people read it but I am doing it for myself and trying hard not to compare myself to other bloggers who have thousands of followers and multiple blogs and get to attend all these great book conferences. I am a little jealous, he he. I guess that is normal. My advice: Do what you love and love what you do. The fact that you read widely, Les Mis one week and Sister Souljah the next is what makes you unique. Embrace it girlfriend!! and keep on blogging.

Anonymous said...

We judge ourselves by what we capable of doing, while others judge us by what we have already done." Longfellow

Great Entry